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Song of the day Jennifer Lopez- I'ma be alright
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzX23qVqyJg

Something I wrote last night after having spoken to B...

I'm really just sittin here thinking maybe you should just cut me out of your life eh? Think about it...no super additional drama/problems that way. The 4 of you can try and live happily or something.

I'm trying to crawl back out this hole..I really need somebody that isnt you..

And as much as I enjoy spending time with you, going places with you, doing different things with you and just being there for you...listening, and understanding..it's not meant to be between us..

On another hand..I do..I do..I can learn though to push it aside though. I've had to do it once before so I know I can but it's like every time I start my healing process here you come back to re injure me.  If it were a battle you'd be the one behind me stabbing me repeatedly and for some odd reason (as flexible as I am,) I can't seem to reach it.

Another day it is..clouded mind? Maybe a little. It's just that I know this has been a really long and dragged out process. How does she feel? That what was once done to me was done to her? How'd she like seeing those hickey's on you..and knowing that you run to me..for years now you have ran to me. How? I'm curious as to how..oh wait...I know how. I know exactly how. You've been the creator and inflictor of pain upon the masses haha.

Time to get back to work...