Fears recited

I am scared to have unreciprocated feelings.
I am scared I will want too much, expect too much, and do too much.
I want and need to be held.
I have never been close to someone of the opposite sex for so long up except as a pen pal.

What am I afraid of?
I am afraid of giving a person more than they deserve.
I am afraid of caring too much.
I am afraid of being left high and dry.
I am afraid of being left for someone else without my dignity.
I am afraid of feelings.

I just want to love and be loved.
I just want a simple life.

I have considered risking these fears.
Honestly I rather not, I rather run.

The reason you can't be in a relationship is to protect yourself, Regardless of if we're really good for each other or could be or have been all along. Regardless of my intent.

The reason I run is to protect myself. Regardless of whether you're good for me to keep around or if you care about me. Regardless of your intent.

Same

I was in the shower truly thinking..."I am the same lonely girl that I have been my entire life..." I don't know when this shit will ever end.

On another note.
I know certain people have not changed, I know just by their character that they haven't changed.

Trying to fool me.

I'm smarter than that.

No regrets

I don't call because all you do is drill me as to when am I coming back. And to be truthful I don't know. That's why I avoid you.

That's all you ever do and I don't have the answer. I may never have the answer.

Captain, captain...I don't need the pressure. I know how you feel but

Numerate never denominate that's why I can't reciprocate...
your feelings. 

It's just the shit that I'm used to.
Not my intent to bruise you.
I don't want to abuse you.
So I take to the sea and be on my way.

And I know you don't understand.
I know you don't comprehend.

And now you asking me why it is
And how it is and when did my feelings change

But my feelings never changed.
Dueces wild Dueces wild baby.
Nobody told you to invest in me.

Tears in the rain

And in that moment I had forgotten who you were,
You were everything and nothing all at once...

The bounce back.  You give up something now only to regret it later.

Maybe someday somebody will get it right the first time.

I'm just laying here wondering. And waiting.