Dashboard Confessional kind of day

Screaming Infidelities
This is karma biting me in the ass
Or slapping me in the face
The reason I am constantly running
Infliction
I was reminded again of someone else's behavior
Who would create distance before crushing me
But I can't let you see it
Can't let you know part of me wants to forget how it all ended
Cause when you do kiss me it's with every ounce of you.
No, it's me. I kiss you with every ounce of me.
Like I would never get this moment back again.
And I sit here choking on these words.
These thoughts
These remnants of everything
Dashboard Confessional playing on the phone
Speaking loudly to these choked up memories and condemned wishes.
I remember feeling a sincere hate for you.
I let you in
you were the last person I let it
And here we are with the occasional linger
And now my body hurts from my selfish needs
And the reason drops begin to set in
Predictive weather of my mood
Not to let it get the best of me
I let you get the best of me
You had
Had the best of me
I'm stuck with the rest of me now
The best deceptions
"You're calling too late, you're calling too late..."

Boudoir

Sometimes I  wonder
Does it pain you that I'm a  bit of a reflection of you
Is that the reason you linger
To be a constant reminder to me that part of us is one in the same
To know that I could leave you alone for Good and be just fine as I already do

And now,  on to something different.

She glances over herself in a large ornate oval mirror.
She pouts then puckers her full red lips
When suddenly she hears two hard knocks on the door.
She slowly walks over to the door.
The lock clicks as She turns it.
She opens the door and leads him inside
she gestures her long slender arm towards a red velvet chair positioned in front of the fireplace in the dimly lit room.
He takes a seat.
The reflection of the flames are dancing across the leather of his shoes.
Standing in front of him
She begins to undo his tie
He looks up at her and into her cool dark eyes then back down to his tie.
His hands lightly holding onto the arms of the chair.
She slides his undone tie out from his collar with one hand and brings it up to her cheek.  She grabs the loose end and holds it taught between a her bare legs.
She bats her long eyelashes and bites down on her bottom lip.
He quickly fidgets in the chair as if to get up but she promptly stops him by taking a step forward now standing between his legs.
"No..." she utters quietly yet forcefully.
He then begins to relax back into the chair.
She then glances down at the tie still in her hands, then back at him, then back at the tie.
She gives a slight giggle.
She then takes her index finger and begins to trace circles on the top of his hand.
She slowly runs her finger up along his arm as she slowly moves behind him.
Up along the side of his neck. 
She glides her finger up along his ear.
From one finger to her whole hand she runs her hand into his soft brown hair and gives a slight tug back on his head.
He rolls his eyes back and he bites down on his own lip.
She's smiling directly over him but the smile is a careful smile,  a cautious smile.
She then takes the tie and begins to  blindfold him...