Monday, May 14, 2012

Zone

So after he forced her to speak to me on Saturday she was kind of speaking unwillingly. I asked her what kind of goals or aspirations she had for herself if any and she told me none, nothing. I'm not sure if it was out of anger or if she really doesn't but so be it.  I didn't speak to anyone yesterday but I received a text this morning. He was mad with me for having talked shit about him apparently while he was gone/in jail. I said to him..you act like this has not been anything you haven't brought upon yourself. It's just a shame really. He's not okay right now and I know that but all of everything that has ever happened has been because of himself. He can not blame anyone else for any of it.  He has no where to go because no one is willing to help him because all he does is use people til there's nothing left. So right now he's trying to go back to Vegas, he said his chances of survival are better out there than they are here, which brings me to my next point..They shouldn't have ever came out here. They should've stayed over there and not brought chaos here to Arizona. He says, that dumb bitch this and that sorry ass bitch that..it's like you fool, that's the woman you love. Talk all the shit you want..call her any name you want. That's all you right there. Why don't either of them understand that about each other I don't know.  I've helped all that I could I told him to try and be good, to try and not let it get to him everything that is bothering him as hard as it may seem. I don't think I can do anymore. I honestly don't care to. If you are going to sit there and not take responsibility for your actions and your behavior I can't help. I did not create this. Which is why I told him I don't need anyone. I stay in my zone ALONE. He asked if he could join me and the answer was no, you are in your own zone. I'm not part of his zone. If any of this makes any sense to anyone but me.  I realize I'm in my zone alone. He can't be a part of it, he ruined his chances.  It's good I stay this way because I don't have any problems like this. I witness problems but they are not my own.  Hopefully he makes figures out what he is going to do and what she is going to do. He said I gave him away..but really he gave me away. Now I'm adrift in the ocean carried away by the tide with signs of land. 

Rob and Lei's tires were slashed last night. It's messed up because Rob and Lei had nothing to do with this mess. I don't know what will happen now. I just plan on staying in my zone. 

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