Above and Beyond

(this morning about an hour ago) And he says to me.."you're not angry, you're serious..you're beyond angry."

He called me and I called him back. I hear her hand him the phone "it's her cell phone number" then an exchange and then "Fuck you bitch..." I got confused and thought he was speaking to me..I said excuse me? I can't remember what else but it sounded like he had only called to make her mad. He was loudly saying "I FELT LIKE I HAD NO ONE TO TALK TO AND SO I JUST WANTED TO CHAT A LITTLE BIT, BECAUSE I KNOW AT LEAST WE NEVER ARGUE"

eh..whatever. I was trying to tell him that I did invite Keesha out with us but not to get things twisted.

A few days ago I spoke to Laka and told her how I was feeling about being deserted. She said that she was here for me so I asked her if she wanted to come to the mall with me. She said she had to go drop her daughter off by Lei and I said I would've invited Lei but what about Keesha. Then I said to myself "oh who cares, Keesha can come too." I told her and she said she'd let Lei know. Lei said let's go Thursday because she had to work yesterday.

This made me feel really weird afterwards. Like really...did I just invite Keesha out with us? So long as she behaves I guess I wouldn't mind.  Just be normal ya know? I know this is the girl who's threatened to fight me a couple of times but she's really just a confused mixed up girl.  She's not far off from myself..well she is but in ways she isn't. I'm at least attempting to do something with my life. I'd help her. Just like I'd help him. I tried to help her before but she turned things around on me for the sake of HIM. Which is okay, I understand she has deep strong feelings for him. I understand why she doesn't like me time to time. Part of her wants to though, I can tell from the short time I tried to befriend her.  Anyways...I don't think I want to go tomorrow. Not after having spoken to him. I'll go alone.  He sounded very mad about it. And I'm not wanting to stir any pots.  I could tell Lei and maybe even Laka were excited to see what would happen. But, I know me. I'm not fighting over no stupid boy.  He's not worth it. Okay so I have some feelings for him but I can do away with them given the right environment, and time of course. Because time heals all right?

Anyways, a few days ago and ex of mine decided to text me..keep in mind things ended really nasty and I no longer had his number. I'm extremely weary about this..I kinda don't even know why I've been texting him back...FAIL -____-