Trouble

Surprisingly in a great mood today although I did get into it with Tom last night. he didn't want me to go out and was breaking bottles outside trying to get me to stay home. I took off anyways. The way to communicate with me is not through yelling and violence and breaking shit.  I do not respond well to those things. I would really hope to someday find someone as laid back as myself. I don't see myself ever being someone who resorts to that kind of behavior when they don't get their way.

I had a good evening anyways, kicked it with the homie (no not B) had somethin I was sippin on and we walked around the neighborhood and got lost actually and I had to pee so freaking bad and it was pretty late so nothing was open.

Just a random side thought...I miss the good side of the Hawaiian fam..the kids I mean. As much as i dislike children certain children are okay. Those kids I don't mind one bit. And there were so many of em too haha. It makes me miss all my family back home and all the kids there, well they are starting not to be kids anymore. My lil cousin will be starting high school soon and I mean seriously how time flies, I remember the day she was born literally like it was yesterday. I guess a good amount of time has passed since then though.

My thoughts...my thoughts...my thoughts..my thoughts..honestly. It feels good to let go. It feels good to be free and it's been so long since I could come out of my external skin.  I try not to be trouble. I try not to be troubled. This troubled troubling life and all the things that go with it. Just these thoughts that keep racing..racing with me and running with me..troubling me. I have never been much of a trouble to most I would say. I have tried to help the troubled even. There are troubled minds I can't ease...and troubled hearts I can't reach. I only do my good deeds. Or what seems good just to me? Fuck trouble. There I go rambling again..