Johnny Appleseed

Why? Why that word..that fucking word..why? UGHH knives..daggars..UGGGHHHH.. So he said "I need comfort, I need to know why you're better than keesha.." I said "whaaa, that makes no sense, I shouldn't have to do that, in fact it should be the other way around!" Anyways after dogging him some more he told me that he wants to hold me and  that he wants to sell his tv to buy us some matching J's.

Honestly..everything is a bunch a bull. He wants to get me where he wants me, I know that...to repeat the cycle.

I had to ask though, why "I'll call u in the morning, only if you love me" bull nana..he said it's cause he thinks I love him and that I just don't want to say it for fear of rejection. And that its okay to "love" him. (I gotta put that shit in quotes) but MY...WHAT A BALLSY THING TO SAY. Hmph. What I can't bear to tell him while he's in there is that that's NOT love. What we have ever had between us has never been love..mostly lies and a person I'll never be able to trust. I just couldn't really say too much. He was callin me babe and had told some dude that I was his girlfriend. Its like no...never again. I won't ever belong to you again. Is he still hung up on the "technically you never broke up with me in person" it's like what did you expect having done the one thing I said would end it all. TSK..he called me babe and was telling me he'll be thinking of me tonight and all that other happy horse shit.

And everyone else is still up my ass about his whole situation...pretending to be/make nice to find out the scoop. Fuck you's what good does it serve them knowing they aren't going to say or do anything. Tevv...we'll see.

My status on facebook that everyone liked said this..."He's tryna plant them verbal seeds in my head, I'm no gardner. Better take that Johnny Appleseed shit somewhere else."