In the wild

Feels like I'm regaining feeling. Not in a way I would like though. I'm getting approached a lot again and I'm doing my best to shy away. I don't know what it is but it's like when you're hot you're hot, if that makes sense. Not like that I absolutely DO NOT have a big head. I don't know, I just feel like I wanna make excuses or like I'm okay to a certain degree but it's like keep a distance from me please. I can't have ANY one close to me right now. I don't want anyone too close to me right now...especially any man.  Physically, mentally, emotionally..Just can't do it right now. It's funny because I'm starting to gain a little bit of curiosity right now with all the attention but deep down I know what happens every time and I'm not looking for that.  I'm not going to feel better that way so staying away is the best bet.  Feels like being tossed into the wild.  I'm trying to do my best to stay in my lil cave anyway from everything and everyone.