Outer Space

I'm not quite sure what made me think of it besides rolling around sleepily in my bed..I jotted a few lines

"scariest thing is..I'm not sure if I truly know how to love a man..I have never been shown love by a man.."

Coincidence? Someone asked me the following day this question "Just say you died..you have no memory, everything is brand new. What is one thing you wish you knew from a previous life?" My answer was love from a father. Really random and well yeah.


Reflection...

He mentioned one thing that reminds him of me..oddly enough I don't remember what it was. I told him lots of things remind me of him.

I've given in to the darkness.

I remember that day, in November or was it December..actually December it was. I hate that feeling..that omniscient sense that I've never had with anyone else. I was so sad. You said you would stay. How did I know you were going? The shit thats left unsaid. My heartache.

I also really wish I could find a cure for these tension headaches...It's been going on for years..I want them to go away for good.

What is it that makes one "awe inspiring" ever have someone look at you and you can tell the sheer...I can't think of the word for it but that LOOK in their eye..they hang on your every word. You are about to go about to go on your way and they don't want you to leave so they keep talking although by this time they make it look awkward and you realize this so it's funny to you.