What Fiction

He asked what I wanted to do after having walked around the entire complex.  Sitting in front of the fountain kicking my feet I said, You know what I want to do. Right now? He questioned. I replied yup.  So we took off.  We had previously talked about why I cannot allow him to be close to me.  Yet he tries.  He calls me beautiful and when we go out anywhere he puts his arm around me. It is so foreign.  For a man who knows he's off limits to live a double life.  I wonder.  I have caught myself quite a few times feeling caught up in jealous emotions but for what?  I recognize the situation that it is and at the same time I tread on the top of the water. I am but a creature for the moment.  He told me I don't respond well to niceties which is usually true.  But it is what it is these are the choices I make.  I am but a mere creature and to err is human.  I shall blow these kisses to the wind.