Pink Matter

I don't usually start with the song outright in the beginning of the blog but this time I am..
I know that I should be working on the expansion of "Bones" and I have been here and there although I don't  want to push the creativity with it.

I had started this little bit on Sunday and keeping in mind post (Saturday)

I wish I could sing to you
individually.
I would love to be a part of your
individual soul.
I know I'm a hard ass.
But baby I need you to hold me.
I need to feel your heart beating.
I need to know that it's there
I need to know that it's real
Cause sometimes I get so gone.
I can't feel a damn thing but cold..
or pain..or numbness.
Being with you brings me back.
Keeps me warm.

And then there you were as if you knew I were writing this.

Today...I've found myself wondering what we or better yet what I was doing again.  How and/or why.  I want to slowly back away from this. It's dangerous and I don't like it.  There is a secret motive behind it.  Trying to win me over...why? I know there must be a reason for it.  There just HAS to be.

Time to disappear again.  At least from him.

On another note, I decided to cut a certain female out of my life and all day long the texts and phone calls begging and pleading with me.  I don't care. I am the captain.

I keep listening to this song on repeat and slowly my disgust grows.

"Since you've been gone I've been havin' withdrawls..You were such a habit to call, I ain't myself at all had to tell myself naw.."