Dreams

Dreams that would come to a screeching halt found here
This day would mark heartbreak..heartache..and being "alone" once more.
A long winding road lies ahead in a dream.
I don't know how to feel right now.
But I know how I feel.
Back to feeling empty.
Back to feeling sad..over all sad..all over again sad..mostly sad for myself.
It is the way of life though and these things do happen.
It's what strips me of my faith.
It's what strips me of my hope.
It's what strips me of my dreams.
It's what bears down when I already feel down.
I was happy.  I had a reason to be happy. (this is not to be confused with grateful because I am always grateful)
but I wanted to be happy. I thought I could be happy.  More than anything.
I was overjoyed at first.  I believed in magic.  Now I'm just a lost girl without a hand to hold again.
Nothing to hold on to.  I very much dislike not having a place to invest my emotions.  A place where I can keep them or at least focus them.
I know how much it doesn't seem. I live a life that's full of dreams. I keep these dreams all to myself.
I hide behind my outer shell.  Most don't get me. Most never will.
I really wanted this to be real.  I did.  With every ounce of me.
It's just going to hurt now. It's gonna burn. It's gonna sting,
with every tear that falls.
I don't want to dream any dreams.