Fears recited

I am scared to have unreciprocated feelings.
I am scared I will want too much, expect too much, and do too much.
I want and need to be held.
I have never been close to someone of the opposite sex for so long up except as a pen pal.

What am I afraid of?
I am afraid of giving a person more than they deserve.
I am afraid of caring too much.
I am afraid of being left high and dry.
I am afraid of being left for someone else without my dignity.
I am afraid of feelings.

I just want to love and be loved.
I just want a simple life.

I have considered risking these fears.
Honestly I rather not, I rather run.

The reason you can't be in a relationship is to protect yourself, Regardless of if we're really good for each other or could be or have been all along. Regardless of my intent.

The reason I run is to protect myself. Regardless of whether you're good for me to keep around or if you care about me. Regardless of your intent.