Fears recited

I am scared to have unreciprocated feelings.
I am scared I will want too much, expect too much, and do too much.
I want and need to be held.
I have never been close to someone of the opposite sex for so long up except as a pen pal.

What am I afraid of?
I am afraid of giving a person more than they deserve.
I am afraid of caring too much.
I am afraid of being left high and dry.
I am afraid of being left for someone else without my dignity.
I am afraid of feelings.

I just want to love and be loved.
I just want a simple life.

I have considered risking these fears.
Honestly I rather not, I rather run.

The reason you can't be in a relationship is to protect yourself, Regardless of if we're really good for each other or could be or have been all along. Regardless of my intent.

The reason I run is to protect myself. Regardless of whether you're good for me to keep around or if you care about me. Regardless of your intent.

Same

I was in the shower truly thinking..."I am the same lonely girl that I have been my entire life..." I don't know when this shit will ever end.

On another note.
I know certain people have not changed, I know just by their character that they haven't changed.

Trying to fool me.

I'm smarter than that.

No regrets

I don't call because all you do is drill me as to when am I coming back. And to be truthful I don't know. That's why I avoid you.

That's all you ever do and I don't have the answer. I may never have the answer.

Captain, captain...I don't need the pressure. I know how you feel but

Numerate never denominate that's why I can't reciprocate...
your feelings. 

It's just the shit that I'm used to.
Not my intent to bruise you.
I don't want to abuse you.
So I take to the sea and be on my way.

And I know you don't understand.
I know you don't comprehend.

And now you asking me why it is
And how it is and when did my feelings change

But my feelings never changed.
Dueces wild Dueces wild baby.
Nobody told you to invest in me.

Tears in the rain

And in that moment I had forgotten who you were,
You were everything and nothing all at once...

The bounce back.  You give up something now only to regret it later.

Maybe someday somebody will get it right the first time.

I'm just laying here wondering. And waiting.

Shift?

http://www.okcupid.com/personality?type=RBLM&g=0&o=1

Sweet. Dear. Loving. At Gate 18. Final call. You are The Sudden Departure.

You’ve been in a lot of serious relationships. More than a few have ended ugly. Uglily. Whatever. Our guess is that you’re a really fantastic girl who doesn’t really know what she wants, and you’ve broken a few hearts as a result. You fall for people easily, and you enjoy the feeling of falling in love, but once you’re there, either boredom or the old “grass is greener” syndrome sets in. The mind wanders, and with it goes the flesh. And then the toiletries.

We know you’re not the classic “love ’em and leave ’em” type, at least not in a purely sexual sense. You have too many serious bonding tendencies for that. But even though you’re theoretically looking to settle down, you don’t settle long on one person. “Serial monogamist” is probably something you hear a lot. “Emotionally loose” is another way to put it. To the poor guys eating your dust and sniffing your panties, it doesn’t really make much difference. Of course, it’s not really your fault that people get hurt. You have every right to move on when you choose.

Songs on Repeat

I want to breathe again
Tired of choking
I want to breathe again
Tired of suffocating
I want to breathe again
O God resuscitate me
I want to breathe again
I need to breathe again
I'm holding on to empty
Caught holding on to nothing
I've lost a part of me
Now I'm screaming to nothing

Intergalactic

I've been trapped here in this sky
Waiting on a gallant hero
To free me from this life among the bleak dimly lit stars.
Super Nova...I am a brighter star.
Can you hear me out there my dear space traveler?
Let me show you something beautiful.
Let me show you something worth exploring.
Something out of this world...this galaxy...this universe.