THE RE-UP PART 1

I've decided to take everything positive that I can think of that I have posted on my facebook ect. and posting it all in one place, so that if I ever need a reminder..it is all right here:


"The lord will not give you more than you can handle."


I know I can not change the world, but I gotta keep moving...gotta keep pushing. Gotta hope for the best. Gotta pray for positiveness and let the negative roll off. I can draw strength from myself even if I have to go it alone. Focus on the "Do's" and not the "Don't"s Gotta stay up.


"God grant me the serenity 
to accept the things I cannot change; 
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference."


Positivity..Go the distance. Be the difference. And give of yourself. Sacrifice. Patience. Love. Consideration. Hope. And Faith. Keys to success in all aspects of life!


ENLIGHTENMENT-(I've come so far): We all deserve to be happy...even the fucked up people. Even the miserable people. We do. Some way. Some how. Even if it means by means of sacrifice.The fucked up people wouldn't be fucked up if they found happiness. Miserable people wouldn't be miserable. That's why you should only want that for everyone. So in the end. I will be acknowledged eventually by someone! lol


It's so easy to get wrapped up and brought down by darkness. Strength lies within the positive, within the light. I believe in me. I believe in the goodness of my heart. I believe in my strength.  This heart that makes me beautiful.  My loyalty.  My patience.  My presence.  My dedication.  I pray that I am shown the way.  I pray for peace. I pray for love. I pray for hope, faith, and forgiveness.  The good. Staying strong upon the good.  And may these things keep me lofty. 

Flashlight

I've been braving the forest with
the insects and creatures that inhabit it
including the blood sucking mosquitoes, leeches
and snakes.
I made it through the treacherous water filled with piranhas.
Through the thick mud into a cave.
In this dark dark abyss
I reach my hand out to the cave walls feeling to my surprise..crystals
Wanting to know and see the beauty of them in a well lit manner.
But all I have is this flashlight.

Wicked Games

She sits in the corner
against the cold chill of rustic red bricks
hard wood floor beneath her
arms wrapped around herself.
the light reflects off of the rain stained windows
through the blinds.
green, red, yellow lights.
Tall empty bottles around her followed by an Empty glass.
she presses her fingertips against the sides of her head.
I glimpse tears forming in her eyes.
she gives a whimper.
in the opposite corner I lean against the wall
arms crossed.
Cigarette smoke rising in the darkness.
The whimper grows into a sob.
I can hear her breathing convulsions.
She curls into fetal position on the floor.
I feel a burn growing in the center of my chest.
I press the cigarette butt against the ash tray.
I grab my coat and my keys.
I step over her body as I head for the door.
She grabs my pant leg wailing.
I pull my leg away.
The doorknob is ice cold as I turn it.
The lights in the hall flicker as I walk
away.

The song was my inspiration.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9PuAm7d0PA

Flames

In the darkness there is nothing left but the glow of embers
Embers that once were a blazing fire
a fire that engulfed everything with crackling roar
the burn of the fire
burn.
her wings were meant to burn
red, gold, yellow, orange,
fiery inferno
to live is to die
I am the phoenix

tbc...

Memento

This memento is not to dwell on the past but rather to bring forth optimism and a new sense of direction

My Libertine Supreme

My libertine supreme
that's what you are.
And with my love comes my anguish and my grief.
And with my pain comes my hope and my faith.
What good is this?
You'd given me the power to find my wings.
Now you're ripping out the feathers.
Grounding me. Grappling me.
This heart is so big I just want love and to be loved.
Screaming as you pluck them one by one or often times by the tuft.
As you sing aloud "GLORY GLORY HALLELUJAH!"
His truth is marching on.......me that is.

The Taste

It is with grave fear that I find myself here..
I need to know that you aren't the monster the world wants to make you out to be
please for the sake of my own fragile heart I must know.
you disguise yourself so well and your touch is ever so sweet
your words do melt like butter upon my soul
PLEASE
do spare me this poisonous rapture
the venom is so sweet
so bitter sweet
how I'd long to tame such a beast
I didn't dare see what was happening before my eyes
blindfolded and cuffed
I could only taste it.
And now tis I that craves it.
But you...
you enjoy watching me squirm,
watching my body writhe in horror of what I've allowed.
I could scream but what is the use
The pain is pleasure
the torture is ease..
my appetite is insatiable
you deprive me
it makes me want more.
I want to escape.
Or do I.